In my opinion, it was the exact definition of holiday.
What can I say about today? There's too much to say so I won't waste energy trying to elaborate on the wonderfulness of today.
(Even if it ended with sore legs and sleepy eyes.)
Sincere thanks to all of you who made this day possible. <3
Alhamdulillah.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
/:)
Looking at my old blog which had around 10 long posts. I mean, those were from P6 nearing the PSLE so I obviously dumped it sooner or later. But Haiqal and Daiyana and Aunty Za all commented and you know, that was then. Good times, eh, good times. But my posts were so unbelievably FAKE. All about PSLE preparation and PSLE oral only and nothing else. Siigh. No emotions or whatever. At least this one's...alive and insightful(?).
Siiigh. Honestly, those WERE good times. :) Yeahhh... And it was pink too! Heh. Totally random and uncalled for. X)
You know, when I was P6, still kinda... innocent. I mean puberty hadn't started.... Eeyer! What the hell?! I did NOT just say that. But it's TRUE so. Uh.
What the shit.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that my P6 years were very... simple and not too complicated, like now. You know what I mean? -reminisces- But I am thankful that at least my problems are also to do with friendship and that is good because it means I am not a loner. (...........)
Ha. Ha. Ha. Well. I think I'll just put the link here even though no one bothers but I care and I want some part of the primary school me to be on this blog which covers my secondary school life. Voilà.
http://chamomile830.multiply.com/
Yep. When chamomile was my favourite flower. Sorry but I think I'll continue sticking with lavender for a long time. But there! 830 will remain favourite number combo for life! August 30 what. Ha. Randomming here. :P
Siiigh. Honestly, those WERE good times. :) Yeahhh... And it was pink too! Heh. Totally random and uncalled for. X)
You know, when I was P6, still kinda... innocent. I mean puberty hadn't started.... Eeyer! What the hell?! I did NOT just say that. But it's TRUE so. Uh.
What the shit.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that my P6 years were very... simple and not too complicated, like now. You know what I mean? -reminisces- But I am thankful that at least my problems are also to do with friendship and that is good because it means I am not a loner. (...........)
Ha. Ha. Ha. Well. I think I'll just put the link here even though no one bothers but I care and I want some part of the primary school me to be on this blog which covers my secondary school life. Voilà.
http://chamomile830.multiply.com/
Yep. When chamomile was my favourite flower. Sorry but I think I'll continue sticking with lavender for a long time. But there! 830 will remain favourite number combo for life! August 30 what. Ha. Randomming here. :P
ROFLMFAO
OMG notalwaysright.com is so hilarious! I think I'm kind of addicted to it. 331 PAGES mind you. That will 100% last the holidays. Or even more. :DDD
It's the kind of stuff that makes you go WTH?! or OMG THIS IS SO RETARDED! or IS THIS GUY DUMB OR WHUT?! and stuff. Basically, it just shows how idiotic humans can be. C: THANKS AHLEESAR/LYSSY!
I can't help it! My hair is too pretty today! ^^ It's just co-operating and stuff and it's so straight and smooth and fragrant and unentangled. You know? Yeah.
It's the kind of stuff that makes you go WTH?! or OMG THIS IS SO RETARDED! or IS THIS GUY DUMB OR WHUT?! and stuff. Basically, it just shows how idiotic humans can be. C: THANKS AHLEESAR/LYSSY!
I can't help it! My hair is too pretty today! ^^ It's just co-operating and stuff and it's so straight and smooth and fragrant and unentangled. You know? Yeah.
Took a quiz from colourquiz.com
Existing situation: Very emotional and artistic, enjoys being surrounded by beauty and art. Looking for a partner who always has an eye for beauty and who enjoys close, loving relationships.
Stress sources: Not a team player and is unwilling to be involved in most activities. In the past she was over involved and now emotionally drained. Due to her fear of over involvement, she now chooses to remain uninvolved with the activities around her.
Restrained characteristics: Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence.
Feels as if too many walls and obstacles are standing in her way and that she is being forced to make compromises. She needs to put her own needs on hold for the time being.
Desired objective: Longs for a loving, caring, and supportive relationship, and fanatisizes of living in perfect harmony with others. Has a strong desire for tenderness and affection and enjoys things which are artistically pleasing to the eye.
Actual Problem: Fears others will try to hold her back from achieving her goals and the things she wants. Puts on the charm and can be manipulative towards others hoping she can get them to do as she wishes and making it easier for her to reach her own goals.
Huh... Actually pretty accurate...
Stress sources: Not a team player and is unwilling to be involved in most activities. In the past she was over involved and now emotionally drained. Due to her fear of over involvement, she now chooses to remain uninvolved with the activities around her.
Restrained characteristics: Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence.
Feels as if too many walls and obstacles are standing in her way and that she is being forced to make compromises. She needs to put her own needs on hold for the time being.
Desired objective: Longs for a loving, caring, and supportive relationship, and fanatisizes of living in perfect harmony with others. Has a strong desire for tenderness and affection and enjoys things which are artistically pleasing to the eye.
Actual Problem: Fears others will try to hold her back from achieving her goals and the things she wants. Puts on the charm and can be manipulative towards others hoping she can get them to do as she wishes and making it easier for her to reach her own goals.
Huh... Actually pretty accurate...
Saturday
Siigh. This Saturday is gonna be super busy. First there'll be OA Accred (:000000000000) which reminds me, I need to go and study. And then after that there would be kenduri for Yai. Then hopefully, I can go sleepover at Nyai's house until Sunday! :D With Shireen, and maybe Haiqal and Daiyana and Arinah, provided they even come at the first place.
With the stupid situation the family is in, the future is unknown. Wak Min is being damn STUPID. Hello?! How can you do this to your own FAMILY?! Sigh never mind. Private family matters. That are retarded.
With the stupid situation the family is in, the future is unknown. Wak Min is being damn STUPID. Hello?! How can you do this to your own FAMILY?! Sigh never mind. Private family matters. That are retarded.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
:)
Well I supposed today was rather eventful. And haha. Now I'm stalking some people i won'tsaywhobutclues:levelmates with my sister. I mean, she chooses a person from the list. Yay. Fun. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Great. Now she says that she wants to sleep. Haiz. -.-
Great. Now she says that she wants to sleep. Haiz. -.-
Weell
Today is a special day. One, it's Aryan's birthday (don't know if he's aware of it -.-). Secondly, well, uh, it's the first anniversary of Yai's death. Mmm.. He was the closest grandparent I had I guess? And he just HAD to go first. Life's unfair. :( And well, it's because of cancer. Yeah. Well I remembered one distinct thing from that day. At the graveyard, it was so hot. And I didn't cry because 1) I was already having a super bad headache from not having a proper meal the whole day and it was late afternoon by that time, so if I cried, there was a possibility of fainting and 2) I cried a lot already anyway.
Hmm... I wanted to be super emo about this but then... That would make me seem...like that. You know? No? Never mind.
And I supposed before the death, I was already preparing for it. Like, sometimes in the bathroom while showering I would..break down. I knew he did not have much time left. So I wasn't that shaken/broken on the day itself. Sigh.
He taught be the colours of the rainbow, you know? I won't use that ROY.G.BIV. shit they use. I'll stick with Richard Of York Gained Britain In Vain. Never forgot that. Oh, and how he always jokes and plays with us. /:) And that thumb magic trick from when I was 4 or 5. And the Princess & The Key story. And you know, just him.
3 months. 3 months was what it took for cancer to claim him. In three months, I saw him waste away. Each Saturday, when we came to visit, he seemed weaker and weaker. The strong voice became a meer hoarse whisper. The big-sized body became all skin and bones. Bed-ridden. He couldn't even look up. Well, he could, but it took a lot of effort. Too much effort. But he did it, anyway, for the sake of us. I never knew the pain he felt. What does cancer feel like? Does it feel like the flu? A headache, a burning sensation? Or is it much more worse? I don't know. I don't ever want to. And yet..sometimes I do want to know how it feels like. Sometimes I wished I had cancer. So I could empathise with him.
He got cancer from smoking. But when I was born, he stopped. For me. For the first grandchild. And for the ones following. Just proved to show how much he loved us. And on Mother's Day 2009, we gathered there. Had a lovely heart-shaped chocolate cake. Mama told me to feed him the cake. She said, "He wouldn't eat if you weren't the one feeding him." See, he wanted us to be happy. So he ate. Even though chocolate cake isn't what he would eat.
63 is considered young, by the way.
Yep, getting emo. But he really was and still is the best grandpa in the world. Yeah, Yai. I love you and I miss you so much. And I will always always always remember you as the funnest most jovial Yai I ever had. I hope your grave will be spacious and bright. <3
Hmm... I wanted to be super emo about this but then... That would make me seem...like that. You know? No? Never mind.
And I supposed before the death, I was already preparing for it. Like, sometimes in the bathroom while showering I would..break down. I knew he did not have much time left. So I wasn't that shaken/broken on the day itself. Sigh.
He taught be the colours of the rainbow, you know? I won't use that ROY.G.BIV. shit they use. I'll stick with Richard Of York Gained Britain In Vain. Never forgot that. Oh, and how he always jokes and plays with us. /:) And that thumb magic trick from when I was 4 or 5. And the Princess & The Key story. And you know, just him.
3 months. 3 months was what it took for cancer to claim him. In three months, I saw him waste away. Each Saturday, when we came to visit, he seemed weaker and weaker. The strong voice became a meer hoarse whisper. The big-sized body became all skin and bones. Bed-ridden. He couldn't even look up. Well, he could, but it took a lot of effort. Too much effort. But he did it, anyway, for the sake of us. I never knew the pain he felt. What does cancer feel like? Does it feel like the flu? A headache, a burning sensation? Or is it much more worse? I don't know. I don't ever want to. And yet..sometimes I do want to know how it feels like. Sometimes I wished I had cancer. So I could empathise with him.
He got cancer from smoking. But when I was born, he stopped. For me. For the first grandchild. And for the ones following. Just proved to show how much he loved us. And on Mother's Day 2009, we gathered there. Had a lovely heart-shaped chocolate cake. Mama told me to feed him the cake. She said, "He wouldn't eat if you weren't the one feeding him." See, he wanted us to be happy. So he ate. Even though chocolate cake isn't what he would eat.
63 is considered young, by the way.
Yep, getting emo. But he really was and still is the best grandpa in the world. Yeah, Yai. I love you and I miss you so much. And I will always always always remember you as the funnest most jovial Yai I ever had. I hope your grave will be spacious and bright. <3
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