Coco Chanel

As promised, my cute little kitty kat. :)












Cute huh? :)

La Femme

Drunk with melancholy, she strips down to her undergarments, leaving her her t-shirt and shorts lying alone on the cold snow-white tiles. She turns to the sink and is surprised to see another girl standing opposite her. She stops and stares at the girl, studying her features while the girl does the same to her. The girl has dark chocolate hair that slightly curls around her shoulders. Her face a light olive colour that comes with an oily complexion. The expression the girl wears is one of hard nonchalance. Soon, she sees a tear trickle down the girl's face. Then another, and another. She wonders if the girl's expression is just a mask hiding the feeling of helplessness. But as the girl's face gets soaked with her crying, the indifference stays, though now even more cold and hard than before. She wants to hug the girl, comfort her. But she realises that she is unable to. For she too, tastes the exact same salty hot teardrops.

Pourquoi?

Why must the two closest friends(?) in my life be the most hurtful?

Je n’avais plus de vie

I. Am. A. Complete. Failure.

Who was I to think that I can do well in anything? Me? Just an insignificant creature. I got 14.8/20 for my Petit Test. What kind of shit is that? For the first time I hate the number 8. If it were 15, just 0.2 more marks, I would feel not as depressed. What kind of shit is this? What kind of person am I?

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Each time I think about The Betrayal, I feel so #$%^&*()&^%$#

WHY THE HELL MUST YOU DO THAT TO ME.

Me: Jan, even if you think you are bad at studies, you have a strength. Footdrill. Nicci, I'm sure you have a strength though I don't know what. But me, I don't have any. Not even one. :'(
Nicci: Audi, YOU HAVE A STRENGTH. Anyway, sometimes strengths can be your weaknesses also.

Je l’aimais pour ça

Whatever people say, I believe that Nicci is a very very very very very nice person. I can tell her anything, as in ANYTHING! From my biggest fears, to my deepest secrets etc etc etc. She's like my own personal counsellor. I told her how betrayed I feel and the casue, and how I am worried that I will never get married, and some other stuff. I will never tell anyone else that, not even my sister.

I can confess to her better than I can to Jan, Xuan Yi, Jan, Miselle, Alyssa etc etc etc. Whom, I guess, I consider I am close to. But I can NEVER tell them the truth inside of me. Those secrets are like, reserved for Nicci. She seems to understand me and I don't even know why.

Se trompait de nom quand il disait qu’il m’aimait

I feel betrayed. So very betrayed. I can't believe you didn't even tell me! And I thought it was just a rumour but when she came just now and told me about it, I was '...'. And not only me, ok? Practically many others would feel the same, maybe even worse than me. And I thought you would AT LEAST tell me!! What the hell?! I want to love everyone, even YOU. But YOU make it SO HARD. Stop being biased for goodness' sake. God, I thought you would at least BE FRANK. And tell me, even though I will probably say no. Or tell others. Or SOMETHING. And not just keep it to yourself. You don't know how much you hurt huh? I bet she feels worse. A million zillion times worse. Because YOU did not even tell her, even though I bet she thinks you care. But I guess you don't. You just don't know how much I would like to call you 'son of a cat' right now. And maybe, who knows? Just scrap the censor word altogether and BE FRANK.

I thought that you were my... URGH. Never mind! >:(

Ennuyeux!!!

Today during Art I was feeling nervous about doing footdrill later on during meeting. Because well, I just do not want my horrible footdrill to screw up the whole sekuad, y'know? Anyway, I was saying 'Oh no, I don't want to do footdrill.' And suddenly this farah kpo for nothing and she said 'Oh I love footdrill! :D' And I looked at her and said 'because it's so slack, right?' Then she said yes. And then I retorted 'Well then it's not footdrill anymore.' Like serves her right!! That's for screwing me up during HMT.

I tell you what happened.

Since it's MT week, we are playing this game called 'Piramida' in class. And it's something like charades. Yes so, since yesterday there were 9 people in class, we had it divided into 3 pairs and one group of 3. I was in that group and we were doing so well! After two rounds, we had 11 points(top score). I contributed 7 of those points because I guessed one of the topics and got all the words right. (Nah, the explanator was good, not me. Thanks to her, I guessed all right!) :P So I was actually very useful to the group. BUT TODAY! SOMEONE did not come and she is farah's pair. So Cikgu told our group of 3 that one person has to move over to be farah's pair. And yes, it was me. >:( LIKE WTHHHHH?!?!?!

And she was not really doing so good in the game to. Yes, her pair was LAST. Meaning I had to deal with a person who cannot explain/guess. And because of her, today I am in last place. >:( Like wth?! 1st to 4th? HMPH. What a bloody idiot.

But what touched me the most was that my other classmates, who will receive top 3 prizes, wanted me to get the first prize! I was very very VERY surprised when Natalia said it was unfair that I was not about to win anything after being able to get all 7 words the first time round, before I moved. And then everyone was agreeing. Aww... Humairah wanted to give her first prize to me. And Siti was looking so sad. And Naomi, well, she actually said bye to me! And I was thinking, 'Hmm... They actually bother.' :) Well, we'll see what happens. I think they deserve their prizes, no?