Dear God,
If You're here God,
Make the fire disappear when they stare, God.
Take away the fear when they interfere, God.
Do you fear God?
'Cause I feel God.
Doubting myself and it feels terrible and I don't know whether to be conceited and to talk about myself all the time because hell, it's narcissistic but I can't be going around weighting others it is not right and in fact quite unjust against them and to make others sad is a terrible, heartless, cruel thing to do.
Friday, October 5, 2012
Thursday, October 4, 2012
an Indian summer in the middle of winter
What a day.
No really.
It was quite a wondrous day..mostly.
But all negativity aside, I just.
I mean.
I can't write well anymore?!?!???!?!?
I should list them.
1. Rainy morning (okay who can even not remotely like rain)
2. Someonething I saw.
3. Great recess period for once when I don't have to do work&crap in class with great company.
4. Had the most fitting bottle of Vitamin Water today. (XXX Triple Berry)
5. Heard the azan for Asar outside the mosque while waiting for the bus.
6. Got my favourite spot on the train.
Well there's more but.
yknow.
My intuition's been so brilliantly strong nowadays.
I wonder why, I really do.
So when I have good feelings, things will be okay.
Though I do need to separate natural anxiety and fear from intuition itself..I mean.
My intuition is almost flawless, for goodness' sake.
Everything went right today and I got l'environnement for Oral today like I did for prelims, and it is most certainly my best thème, and..and I did fine.
I can feel it.
I did okay, and they were happy, and I was happy.
And I did okay.
Even though it was two male teachers and one of them was French and I never wanted the teachers to be male because I thought they'd be too intimidating.
But everything was good.
I mean.
When they said we would be talking about the environment, god.
Like, woah, really?
Really, really?
You're not kidding?
You're really going to give it to me that easily?
You're really going to let me be okay for French?
Really?
What were the odds of getting environment as my theme?
Ahaha the odds were in my favour.
I am blessed and I should remember that.
No really.
It was quite a wondrous day..mostly.
But all negativity aside, I just.
I mean.
I should list them.
1. Rainy morning (okay who can even not remotely like rain)
2. Some
3. Great recess period for once when I don't have to do work&crap in class with great company.
4. Had the most fitting bottle of Vitamin Water today. (XXX Triple Berry)
5. Heard the azan for Asar outside the mosque while waiting for the bus.
6. Got my favourite spot on the train.
Well there's more but.
yknow.
My intuition's been so brilliantly strong nowadays.
I wonder why, I really do.
So when I have good feelings, things will be okay.
Though I do need to separate natural anxiety and fear from intuition itself..I mean.
My intuition is almost flawless, for goodness' sake.
Everything went right today and I got l'environnement for Oral today like I did for prelims, and it is most certainly my best thème, and..and I did fine.
I can feel it.
I did okay, and they were happy, and I was happy.
And I did okay.
Even though it was two male teachers and one of them was French and I never wanted the teachers to be male because I thought they'd be too intimidating.
But everything was good.
I mean.
When they said we would be talking about the environment, god.
Like, woah, really?
Really, really?
You're not kidding?
You're really going to give it to me that easily?
You're really going to let me be okay for French?
Really?
What were the odds of getting environment as my theme?
Ahaha the odds were in my favour.
I am blessed and I should remember that.
peace; serenity
I've always said that rainy days are beautiful days, so let us put this into context.
A rainy morning is a beautiful morning.
A rainy morning is a beautiful morning.
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