how could a goddess

i was thinking about the four books i am in the midst of reading
so there is a lot of book jumping
(which i've never quite allowed myself to do)
here they are:
Death and The King's Horseman, Wole Soyinka
this is much less a book than a play, really, but it is one of my lit texts and i have to get it read by tomorrow
i suppose you can say this is obligatory reading, but it isn't that bad a read
Bilingual : life and reality, Fraņcois Grosjean
Beatrice and Virgil, Yann Martel
i am reading it because a friend recommended it to me, and i owe her for that
i think people remember him for Life of Pi which i have read 0 times, but i know him for Self which i picked up in sec 2 and still remember it to this day v vividly bc it is about a man who wakes up one day to find he has become a woman and it was such an odd read but i think i liked it
The Tale of Desperaux, Kate DiCamillo

well it's been a long day but i did ok
i'm going to sit down and maybe finish off my Beatrice and Virgil
goodnight

ok "ok" is an understatement but i feel too tired to overplay things

dies ist der erste gloria

i can feel my reading interests changing.
today i picked up a book on bilingualism and i feel so very excited to get it read.
but recently i tried a bit of tfios and i couldn't get past chapter three when i know that maybe 1.5 years ago i would probably have wolfed it down.

that slow burn wait while it gets dark

god i looooooove snk.
looooooooooooooove.

dancing in a world alone

anyway i feel like i have lost my bearings
without a thing to do over the holidays
without a to-do list
without assignments or necessitated revision
and since i suck at being proactive in my learning when i don't feel like it
i have done and accomplished nothing
the start of the holidays passed very, very well indeed
but on thursday i fell ill and i have been ever since
so i am nursing my cold and the monthly pains and i feel miserable
and it is a saturday night / sunday morning and i can't sleep and i have to be up early tomorrow and this is my first time in a long time using the computer
and the time travel fic still lies there sadly with an unfinished end and i feel so, so lost
but ocean sequence updated unexpectedly yesterday and it makes me smile-y still.
god i can't wait for school to start once more.
it feels like the exams had ended aaaages ago.

lights reflect from your shadow

i feel like this blog has run its course, but maybe i am wrong ??
i'll let the feelings simmer for a little bit more, before i settle.
also is it possible to physically publish a blog ?
for memories' sake ?
hm.

but also
shingeki no kyojin.
i didn't know levi = rivaille ??!

queen is the title

I am going to be a sociology student.

I cannot be any more excited.

we're on a quick, sick rampage

just a few speedy updates, i suppose.

last week wasn't very good, but i tried my hardest to be rational and figure out why, and i don't think i was wrong in saying that ovulation influenced a large part of it.

i've been very good with keeping to deadlines for assignments, or the occasional extensions, anyway.

i think that's a very good thing and i am pleased with myself.

i can't say the same for revision, but i'm working towards it.

there is so much to consolidate, so much to do for lit and i feel very anxious at the amount of work i'd have to finish very soon.

for econs, i'd have to go over everything that's been taught and internalise it, which is so very crucial.

same for math because probability and binomial distribution are being so very effectively elusive and i am frazzled.

i am finding myself to be more and more systematic about everything i do, and i think that's great.

work is work & i do what i have to do.

if there is anything i did wrong, then i acknowledge my duty to rectify it.

somewhere sometime ago i made myself recognise that mistakes are ok, and that i really should stop berating myself for em

though i do accede to a couple minutes (or hours) of self-loathe then it's back to loving myself so much it's gross.

i suppose.

tbh i really don't care about anyone but myself right now

if that's what it takes to get me focused and constantly moving forward, then that's what imma do.

//

i am an endless work in progress.