How am I supposed to finish what you start?

Oh no, I'm really lost now.

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I WANT THE BLOG BACK.

I can't find a better one anywhere.

I WANT THE BLOG BACK.

It's the only one that helps me get through things.

I WANT THE BLOG BACK.

Enya, where are you?

I WANT. THE. BLOG. BACK.

)'':

You gave me strength, gave me hope, for a lifetime.

Oh my God.

This canNOT be happening.

The site's locked.

THE SITE'S LOCKED.

SHT.

My inspiration, my encouragement, GONE.

ohmygodohmygodohmygod.

What am I going to do now?

):

Open it again, (the real) Enya!

)':

Please, please, please do.

Or I'll feel so lost.

)))))))))))':

Why don't I care?

I need to start caring about my weight again.

I really do.

Today alone, I consumed so much.

I got agitated for not having food quick enough.

Why?

WHY?

That's not supposed to happen!

Remember 37.

Urgh.

Eeurgh.

I have many many troubles/hassles.

Silly mosquito bites.

I have them everywhere on my legs.

(WHERE DO THE MOZZIES COME FROM?)

As if I don't have enough pests sucking my blood.

(Metaphorically-speaking too.)

Silly blocked nose.

I don' t understand how you can be runny at the same time.

Am I getting the flu?

Ah shiz.

But I never fall sick, so there.

Stop troubling me, will you?

I must so blow my nose now.

Ack.

so much for my happy ending

Wow. Life really is horrid now.

K not really horrid.

But..just..so...chaotic.

People are always bustling past, leaving dusty clouds of confusion where their feet had once stepped.

Ahh, I don't know how to say this.

Everyone's always changing, evolving slowly but surely at every point of time.

Slowly, I say, but always too quick for me to catch up and realise.

Stupid.

I've been so stupid.

But I'm only fifteen, and fifteen-year-olds are always bound to make mistakes, reckless decisions that can or can not be resolved with one simple word.

And now, I have to admit, I can't stop myself from acting that way because I'm only human, and not a fully matured one at that.

I feel the plight you felt then, Enya. I'm sorry for being even madder when you told me that. You're right, it IS true, and now it's what I want to tell HER, but I cannot because I know how it feels like to be told that, and the only result is disappointment.

Visage

What have I been doing today?

Finally catching up with my reading, I suppose.

The book I'm reading now is perfectly charming.

I'm already halfway through it.

❤

will you say alright, will you say ok?

I had a nice enough long weekend.

(So far, anyway.)

Despite the days' dramas and setbacks, there's nothing like family to always perk you up!

On Friday, Mama baked cupcakes using recipes from the cupcake book and they were so heavenly.

Then we watched Avatar again.

And it didn't seem so long.

(Haha my favorite favorite line: "You're not the only one with a gun, bitch.")

I've been listening more to old songs lately.

Jesse McCartney, Vanessa Hudgens, Beyonce, etc etc.

I'm not really into the songs playing now-times.

Don't know why.

Just so.

I got a new bag today.

I'm going to use it for school.

No doubt, it's a tote bag.

It's bigger than the one I used previously(yay!), and so much more cuter.

I'm not kidding!

(':

It's a Mel bag.

I like Perlini & Mel bags.

They appeal so much to me.

Always affordable, never above $60.

And their hobos are just my type too!

I adore their bold and vivid colours.

I wish I had every bag they have.

I'd rather have a Perlini & Mel bag than a Coach/Louis Vuitton/Prada bag.

Really.

Oh. Anis got a new pair of Converse sneakers.

Bright red.

Nice, I guess, but not my type.

Though they'll look awesome with certain skirts.

She says she wants to have as many sneakers as the number of my pairs of heels.

(Ha! Tough luck. I have at least 5 pairs and I don't think Mama will allow her to have 5 pairs of sneakers!)

Everyone likes a bit of attention, no matter the source of it.