i think she's choosing it right now

Well this is fucking bullshit.
My JC life is supposed to be healthy if this is something that gives me intense emotional anxiety and dire physical exhaustion in a way that affects the way I study I'll have to weed it out..somehow.
And doesn't help that my coping mechanism is essentially dissociating, so maybe that may translate as procrastination somehow, maybe idk.
smdh.

kiss me like you wanna be loved

to make up for all the doubts I've been having tonight.

will you still love me

oH FOR GOD'S SAKE DON'T MAKE YOUR NAME LIM JAYNE I JUST READ A MASTERPOST ABOUT LIAM PAYNE FGS YOU CONFUSED ME FOR A MOMENT WHEN I OPENED UP THE SCHOOL EMAIL OH FGS YOUR NAMEEEE.

THIS COINCIDENCE IS FUNNY.

choose your last words

Sometimes when I see the number of views increase and it isn't me I laugh because hey there so did I manage to entertain you with some stupid things woah there 12 views on the killjoy post do you like the gifs or idk I wish I could see your reactions to what I write sometimes that would be funny because sometimes I write nice stuff other times I write terrible things other other times it's weird like the one below this but why not you know because it's true and all and anyway how are you today I hope you've had a great day I pray that you'll have a great week June hols coming soon huh yeah but it isn't /really/ a holiday isn't it it sure isn't one for me I mean I'll be away for 2 whole weeks and the remaining 2 will be so busy I have so much to do it's ridiculous what about you well idk I hope you find some repose or something then yeah well good luck with that in the meantime look out for more dumb things on this blog but I really have some good points sometimes I have to say because it's true like the one direction ones I get really weirdly proud of them because that's what I call sad reality like everything around us because it's sad one direction is in a tough place hey speaking about one direction guess what they've sold out stadium tours scheduled in 2014 for an album not even released yet in 6 minutes yeah that's right /6/ wow I am so proud of them my pretty babies who never thought they'd make it this far but look I mean just /look/ just wow I am so proud of them no lie 3 years is all it takes and they're living their dream even with the sad things going on in their life I guess in a way so idk I'm hopelessly proud of them honest to god yeah well that's it for now keep doing your thing you awesome person and remember to be nice even when it's hard to be nice because you must remember that not everyone works the way you do ok? so you must never forget that and if you need anyone to talk to you can talk to me and stuff I mean I won't promise to give you brilliant advice but I'll try to understand you because I need to learn how to understand people too and all and remember to sleep early and focus in class because we're not learning rudimentary things anymore we /must/ concentrate and be good ok? also remember to not be judgemental because that is just horrid and now you are ready to face the world not really true I guess but hey we can all dream right?

sometimes's love (though sometimes I'd say "life" because) is not enough
and the road gets tough
i don't know why.

heart is beating in a different way

• Friend: Oh my god I read a book once that had a sex scene in it was so weird.
• Friend: Have you ever read anything like that?
• Me:
• Friend:
• Me:
• Friend:
• Me:
• Friend:
• Me: No ew that's gross what sort of disgusting human being do you think I am how dare you accuse me of such a thing.

gotta be you

And this isn't helping either it's making me want to cry even more, because every single word is heartbreakingly true.

round and around and around and around we go

Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh I am getting so many feels and descending into much incoherency and One Direction hasn't made me feel like this in weeks as in I haven't been getting feels feels from them in a long time maybe it's because I haven't been immersing myself in any 1D for like one week one honest to god I didn't listen to any of their songs or read any fanfic and the furthest I went was tumblr?? so idk I am so sad getting feels let me tell you I just.

Long story short the love I have for this boyband is immense and I have so much affection for them.
These stupid five idiots.



One Direction are a bunch of fucking Hyena-children.