I wish with all my almost-broken heart that jealousy is non-existent

:( Sigh. Jealousy must be the worst thing ever. It always leads to hate, and that is definitely NOT good. Must breathe.

I don't even get why I am jealous. If only jealousy weren't my flaw..

But anyway, at least I can continue fattening myself up with chocolate cream biscuits and milk prata which I can happily say that I can make myself. Yesss. I do not need to go to the local coffeeshop anymore for a bite of it. I make myself a plate full of those. >:) Yeah, I tried making it today. It was kinda successful, I guess. Teehee.

And I painted my toenails with henna. And um, it's just random FYI but it's um, yeah. And henna is better than nail polish in more ways than one. It stays there for a long time and it doesn't disappear by itself. You don't have to do anything to remove it, just cut your nails, as per normal, so it's no hassle. Plus, it is okay to solat with it on. Not like nail polish, which requires base and top coats, and some nail polish remover if you want to get rid of it. Also, sometimes, it doesn't seem to stay on and some parts rub off. Ick. And anyway, you cannot solat with it. So yes. :)

And my week so far had been quite wonderful with the sleepovers- with family and friends. ;) Thanks Nyai and my great cousins and the parents and Jan and Nicole for the lovely time. ^^

Hm. I see that this post is very..random.

I can therefore conclude that I am a great fortune teller. The winner will always be Twilight. Trust me.

I'm watching the 2010 MTV Movie Awards on MTV now and I'm just so pissed and bored. If not for the comedy acts and the performances, I would have switched off the tv already. It sucks that Harry Potter & The Half-blood Prince and Alice In Wonderland and 17 Again and Avatar(even if I don't quite like it) have NO CHANCE TO WIN. AT ALL. It just freaking sucks. I mean, I like Twilight. But why must they win EVERYTHING?!?! Yeah, until the host Aziz Ansari said 'Yay what a surprise Twilight won EVERYTHING' at the end.

It's dumb and stupid. What's so GREAT about the movie until BETTER MOVIES DON'T EVEN STAND A CHANCE TO WIN? The only thing Twilight movies have is an average-looking girl, and one super ugly gay-looking guy whose lips are too red and body is too bony. (Sorry, I gotta say Taylor Lautner is still cute and hot.) And, I mean, that's all. I'm just sick of seeing Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson get up the stage. It's getting DAMN IRRITATING.

I am not kidding. They won every category they were being nominated for. Stupid shit.

XC

I promise not to eat Mac's for the whole month. It's a promise, I tell you, A PROMISE! I ate there on Friday and on Sunday, and am kinda sick of it.

Well, after that we went to Daiso!! Isn't that the funnest thing to do EVAR?! Always $2. Nicee. I got a mug for June camp, some design to cover up the hole in my pants, and a letter-writing set of some papers and envelopes with the Eiffel Tower design. :DDD It was so much fun shopping with Haiqal and Daiyana and Anis. You know, bonding time. Teehee.

After that, we went to the playground. We wanted to play Haunted House but we just didn't have the mood so we just bersembang on the playground thingy. And talked about stuff. Haiqal should pay attention to his studies. It's scaring me.

I love my cousins. It was a very fun sleepover even though it was too short. :)

.......

I was quite In A Mood, wasn't I? Ah, dammit. :( I still can't believe the f-word is there. :D

But honestly, the weekend wasn't too bad.:) I'm at Nyai's house now. I had a sleeppover here from yesterday after the kenduri for arwah Yai(WHICH I MISSED BECAUSE OF OA). Uh, let's start from scratch...

On Friday, I was getting so pissed that the bloody printer wouldn't print my OA notes just because the Cyan ink cartridge was empty. I don't even need the bleeding blue colour. I just need black. Which was full. Yet it wouldn't print. Dammit. And I got pissed. And very pissed. And suddenly I was emoing. And then I felt unloved. Then I cried. And emoed. And cied some more. And lashed out at Xuan Yi on MSN. Damn, I am so sorry. :(

Then on Saturday, for the OA thing, I forgot to bring cutlery, had no notes, came almost late...again. And I was just emoing somemore there. And uh...yeah. Lebih-lebih lagi kerana si dia ada situ.

But I hated the outdoor cooking. The fire just refused to light up and from now onwards, I hate instant noodles. URGH. Bleh. URGH URGH URGH URGH. Until we had to But the day got better and well... It was fun, I guess. play a vege-eating contest just to finish it. Unfortunately, Nicci seemed The food was.......uh.....uh. But the vege. OMG. URGH. PLAIN to always win until Jan conquered her. Muahaha. And uh, yeah.

When I got to Nyai's house, there were so many people. Too many. Sigh. In my dirty SCRCY shirt and track pants, I don't think I quite fitted in. But whatever. Salam, salam, salam, went to the guest room(wah air-con!!) and saw Haiqal Daiyana Anis Arinah Shireen Adani Aryan and then I smiled. Blah blah blah blah blah. Then after the whole event the adults stayed back to discuss the problem. :( Damn that bitch to the deepest pits of hell. DAMN HER!!!!!!! I HATE HER MORE THAN DRIMA! Stupid bitch can't even see that SHE'S the problem, and not Aunty Za or Haiqal, Daiyana and Arinah. But you know what? Sigh. I won't judge. Whatever.

Then we OMG, we slept so late, like at 3 am. We were watching RWJ vids even though it was not quite appropiate for the 3 little kids. :D And it was so COLD. I had a very hole-y blanket and was sleeping under the air-con on the mattress on the floor with 3 people squeezed on it. Un-comfy.

But ANYWAY. We had lotsa fun! We're going to Macdonald's soon with Aunty Julia and Uncle Andy. Yay! :)

you dont get it do you

who do you think i am? some kind of entertainer? huh? and you can just like my status any freaking time you feel like it? shut up. its not abt any freaking bloody june hols hw im talking abt, k? that is clearly manageable as it is only the first wk of hols anyway. and hw is always important to ensure that we do some revision. so stop thinking that it is. i just. i just want some words. sth along the lines of 'hey, you ok?' or sth liddat. not just a bloody notification saying 'blahblahblah likes your status'.

all im saying is, im sick of having the world prove that i am just a bloody nobody. get lost, life. just go away. GO AWAY.

somehow, im saying that just to see who would care enough to actually come and show me that they care.

bloody hell. like as if that will happen.

ha. im a stupid entertainer whose statuses get liked whenerver the liker feels like it.

Huh

The printer is pathetic. This blog is pathetic. This life is pathetic. I am pathetic. You are pathetic. everyone of them is pathetic. my hormones are pathetic. the tagboard is pathetic. oa is pathetic. GMH is fucking pathetic. people who like statuses but dont do anything else are pathetic. deaths are pathetic. crying is pathetic. fake friends are pathetic. my shoes are pathetic. sisters are pathetic. msn is pathetic. facebook is pathetic. my phone is pathetic. being human is pathetic. i dont give a fucking damn anymore, k? so just leave me alone. leave me alone unless you're gonna do something about it and not let me float around lost. just go away and prove that i have no friends so i wont get stranded in the end.

You know what?

I was/am right. No one cares. And I bet nobody will bother to do anything. It just sucks to be me. It just sucks.