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Honestly, it is quite scary to think that someone who doesn't even know you well is regularly reading your blog.

Just like a stalker.

Courtesy of Hushy :)

You say that the world doesn't revolve around me. News-flash:It doesn't revolve around you either.

Amazing and suitable quote.

As another side-note,

Today's LA Test was.... bad? Honestly, I did not study too much or anything. So I crapped throughout the whole of it. Just bullcrapped my way out. Har. Har. Har.

But LA lesson today was fun. :D I mean, the only thing we did was draw sketches of the 7 suitors based on Portia's views/stereotypes. And THEN I got back the CA2 results. It was actually kind of satisfying to see that I got an A2, missing A1 by 0.5 marks. TT BUT FC said that that's not the final mark, which would actually be higher. Meaning, I GET AN A1! YAY! Isn't that a great improvement from C5 for CA1? A low, A1, but still, an A1.

:D

Also, during the LA lesson, I got reminded of the day again. And of course I get excited. :)

Anyhoo, it was a satisfactory average day.

You know something?

Sometimes, the easiest way to stop the pain is to simply extract yourself from the confusion in the first place.

Extract myself from SCRCY Sec 3s for a moment. Forget the way some people are acting so..witchy. And forget how everyone must get along with each other. Forget how it is forbidden to act bitchy at all. And forget how you are forced to be part of this term called 'a level bond' at the end of the day.

Goodness, I miss Siti a lot. :( She's the only way I forget SCRCY for a little moment. When I NEED to forget it all, she absolutely HAD to be away for at least 2 weeks. In her world of choir, bitchiness is part and parcel of everything. Cliques form and no one cares. In fact, cliques were supposed to form anyway. Kind of a carefree life.

When she's around, we get to bitch and bitch and bitch about anyone even though she won't know the person I'm bitching about too much. And we don't care. You know she says 'Your levelmates are very bonded.' a LOT. And everytime, I just look her in the eye and smile, or scoff, maybe, I don't know.

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I just want her back.

As a sidenote, this week is the worst week ever.

I feel a slight change coming over me

During the week-ends, somehow I decided to stop it. Stop this..weakness. I am sick of the way everything is controlled with the slightest tantrum. Sick of how she controls everything. I may be wrong, but I see it a lot of times. A LOT.

Oh, who am I kidding? I can't do it. I can't be as mean as I want myself to be. I can't even write my true feelings on this public blog.

I can't snap back at people lest I hurt them, and then they will hate me, and..omg. This is not about hurting their feelings, right? It's about mine! I don't want them to walk out on me.

But I'll try. I mean I have one friend I can turn to. No matter what. So that won't matter. Can I be as mean as I want to?

Sure, go ahead.

But I tell you, I had never looked at this one person and felt such an intense hatred(?) and anger(?) for hurting other people. And not trying to change that.

My god. Do you think everything revolves around you or what? My goodness. I am very through with the way you dominate things and act all superior.

Dear Life, I shall try to show my true feelings as much as possible.

Since she asked for it,

Here is a whole blog post for you, Xuan Yi.

Hurh hurh hurh.

I don't know what to say about you.

You're almost always awesome.

Teehee.

You better remember your promise.

Here is some space below, so you can fill it in yourself.



















I hope you are happy now.

But you are only wasting my blog space.

Thanks so much.

Good night.

Love, me.

Dadada blah blah blah

My gosh life can be so horrid at times.

Disappointment rains in torrents every single time. And always after hopes are being brought up so high it ridiculously exceeds the limits of the sky.

I do not want to be disappointed. Especially on my birthday. Especially then. Please don't.