It's the haze!

Haha, I think it's pretty amazing. :P Yeah, different opinion, I know, but still. The last haze was when, two years ago? Heh. I would really like it, except for the fact that it's overwhelming me a lot. :S And it feels like I can't breathe properly and I feel more agitated and restless than usual. Hmm.

Anyway, I kinda have something to be imagined.

Suppose we have no languages. Suppose we know no words for basic expressions. Suppose we can't say, "Oh, I am quite happy today!", and can only feel this curious light sensation that makes your cheeks flush and your whole self want to skip and dance, and you just feel like laughing forever, but you have no idea what the queer feeling is. Suppose!

Though I know there's such thing as drawing, but still. Just imagine that. A world with no language. Imagine that.

Just read.

'Perhaps you can feel if you can't hear,' was her fancy. 'Perhaps kind thoughts reach people somehow, even through windows and doors and walls. Perhaps you feel a little warm and comforted, and you don't know why, when I am standing here in the cold and hoping you will get well and happy again. I am so sorry for you,' she would whisper in an intense little voice. 'I wish you had a "Little Missus" who could pet you as I used to pet papa when he had a headache. I should like to be your "Little Missus" myself, poor dear! Good night - good night. God bless you!'


Yeah, that was the part that almost moved me to tears. Because you see, it was very, very, very selfless of Sara to actually feel sorry for someone who had all the riches he could ever have, when it is obvious that she was in a much worse state than him. She was hungry, and tired, and cold, yet she still prayed for someone else's life, and not hers, to get better, and with much fervor at that.

But, oh, I think what was touching was how.. angelic she seemed. And that at such a tender age, she is able to be that concerned about someone she hardly knows, it amazes me. And I suppose it is quite horrid that it is lacking in our lives. And it's really very admirable, though she is a fictional character.

Haha I think I'm ranting and ranting. -.- Hehe.

But I just think that yes, I would like to be like her. Isn't that queer? To want to be like a person who never existed. Hm. :/

Oh dear.

I am very much aware that I CAN be quite childish at times. But, oh, can't anyone see that sometimes peace can be found simply by forgetting any of our obligations? Oh my, I know I'm not quite making sense now, but.

Suppose you were a little girl once more. You don't have to live up to any expectations by anyone to excel every essay written. You don't have to think in a mtured manner. You don't have to.. to think at all.

Little girls are always expected to be that petite rosy child who has no care at all in the world, discovering it by themselves through mysterious means every one of the children always seem to know. (Yet it is a wonder how the secret is forgotten when one reaches, what they call, Adulthood.)

For some reason, I always imagine young girls to have messy yet beautiful, soft golden locks that drift about them, with eyes the colour of sapphires. They will have that healthy pink glow about them that resonates pure happiness. They wear sunhats and pretty little summer dresses that are made of soft floral fabric the colour of pale roses. And white sandals too. Oh, no makeup either, for it is all about that pretty natural look.

Well, um, haha. Ok. So you see, my little childish escapades, they usually consist of colouring in my 3 colouring books, or playing with elegant dolls, or reading those books meant for the younger readers. (For I think the best lessons can be learnt from those books, rather than from chick lit.)

I see that it probably sounds weird and all. But oh well.

I had just finished reading A Little Princess for the third time. But I know sooner or later, I'll read it again. I think it's official. That is my favouritest book.

You know that you can't live without the book/the book is good if:

-you are able to read it again and again and again without getting sick of it.
-there are parts that simply move you (I'm not kidding. Something Sara said almost made me cry. I would have, if I weren't in the courtyard. And it was my 3rd time reading it, kay?)
-you start to adopt the author's writing style, or you incorporate some phrases in your writing.
-you start to wish you lived in the story.

There's probably more, but anyway. I don't know. I only managed to figure those out. :/

Goodnight! ^^

[:

Hmm.. It was practically a very average, boring day. :/ Very, very boring.

Maybe I'll go to the library some day. [: I realised I had not read recently. D: How did I live?! Hm. I think I'll go read A Little Princess. Again. (:

Hm. You know last Monday we went to Jan's house to celebrate her and Nicole's birthday right? :D

Haha! It was SUCH an epic day! But still, we had a LOT of fun, right? It was one of the best days ever. :)

And the cake! Was so! Yummy! An ice-cream cake of rocky road and cookies & cream? AHH!! It was heavenly. (:

Yes, I'm bored! I really am bored! And well, I would like to go back to school, except for the fact that I'm really, really nervous for the results. You know? Like, I somehow know it's going to be nasty. :S

And yes, I do have those small flames of insecurity flickering back to life in that small corner of my heart. Again. ):

Remember the last time that happened? It wasn't very nice.

I love my cousin's Tumblr :3

Nicci would love this.
Magical.

Siiighh...

She's exposed!

Elle a l'air d'une princesse. :S

-gasp!- Wow!

Woots! I wish!

Yeah, that's true. ):

Can't help but LOL.

And you feel like shouting, "Hey, look at me!!"
Guilty. XD
Cool.

Gah, I'm seriously bored. Can't you tell?

(:

Well, I've finally caught up with life and watched Beauty & The Beast for the first time in my life, can you believe that?
What a lovely story.
Ah, the old Disney..

Oh well, what did I do?
Right, yesterday, I ate the double filet-o-fish. Haha. It was nice at first, then it felt urghish. >:/ Yup.

Ah, Coco's here! I shall go and play with her. :D
Tomorrow Nicole, Alyssa, Miselle, Nicolette and I are all gonna troop to Jan's house! Can't wait!

:x

I shouldn't be online or whatever but you would never believe what I'm doing, a night before the first exam(or first step into war, if you like).

I was reading my whole blog! D:

Of course it's not good.

But I have this to say anyway.

I WAS shallow, wasn't I?

A little..foolish to put all those feelings out there.

Plain for everyone of every level to read.

:S

Some of the posts were pretty..well..unsuitable.

Well, back to hiatus.
Bye~