You know what.

Actually I'm torn between being the one who will always be there for everyone else, remembering to constantly ask 'you ok?' and try to be that good enough friend, but at the same time sacrificing myself because then I will always expect people to treat me the exact same way I treat them (that never happens, I swear).

Or the childish spoilt person who would want everything to go my own way and be glad when something bad happens to them only because they never were good enough friends to me, sacrificing my pride still.

Darn this is incoherent.