After me there shall be no more

Ahhhhhhhh I am so worried!

Everything's happening suddenly!!

Aiyoh!!

I need to finish my homework asap.

Why why why am I not done cleaning my room??

):

So busy!

FDC IN ONE WEEK.

!!!!!!!!!!!

):

AIUfhawoghnawiugaweuehfWAOIHFEIDUFG!!

Sandpaper Classroom

I had a dream that I was in a huge tea parlour with cakes and cakes and cakes all around me.

There were huge cupcakes and full cakes and small slices and cookies.

There was lemon strawberry, and chocolate, and orange, and cheese, and pandan.

Just a lovely place full of delicious confectionery.

And the concept of it is so..

I should open up a cake place like that when I grow up!

Inspirational dream~

Come, come.

Forget my birthday.

I dare you to.

(:

On a brighter note,

Excursion today to the ACM was charming, but too short.

I didn't have enough time to just appreciate everything.

I wanna go again and take in everything nice and slowly.

What's the point if you spend only 30 minutes in a museum?

):

Anyway, bus rides there and back were lovely.

Annnnd I met my sister there.

Northview+SC lolll.

(:

I feel so..

Used.

Horrid.

Pathetic.

Confused.

Loved.

Unloved.

Used.

Kk.

Look at it this way, right?

Friends are supposed to tolerate each other.

K?
Either that, or you have relationships with your friends like the one I have with my sister.

K?

You love, you fight and almost hate, but you don't.

Right?

No, instead, you fall out and come together again.

Yeah?

Godgodgod, this is sickening me so much.

):

Is it a wonder then that I just stay in class sometimes during recess and just talk about anything and everything with Farah and Zi Wei.

(No actually I usually stay back to finish up A-Math/E-Math.)

Right?

Right.

Thank the heavens we will still be in the same class next year, there's lesser chance of drifting apart.

Oh God, I feel so blurdy used.

This time won't you save me?

This time won't you save me?

Baby, I can feel myself giving up.

-Save Me

Love you, Nicki.

KK THAT'S IT.

What is this, a freaking repeat of last year?

Fine thenn I will just make the first move, again.

Why must you be so disdainful?

Never mind, I shall swallow my pride.

You know, 'cause I actually CARE.

Hold your horses, bite your tongues

And keep grand airs for yourselves, if you please.

god damned.

I am so fuvking pissed now. What the hell is wrong with people who have no common sense?!?! Gnd lah biiiiiiiiiiiiitch. Bloody math, i've been looking at amath ass. 20 for 2 bloody hours and nothing's happening. E-math's being a heck of a biiiiitch also. Shoot lah.
urgh.
URGH.
Feel like going on a meaningless rampage.
the first person i'll kill will be that irritating edyrfgyhukjhnb.
k?
then next, it'll be that other one.
the sweet, adorable but FAKE one.
ok?
and lastly,
that one with the suddenly stuck-up attitude.
alright?
alright.

I can't take it, take it, take no more!

I am hungry but not hungry, know what I mean?

I heard somewhere, sometime that your hunger and satiation level depends on the size of your stomach..?

-.-

But anyway, I think during the 'wannarexic' period that time, my stomach shrunk so now technically, I can just eat a piece of bread and be full.

Maybe that's why every time after buka I feel like throwing up all the food I (over)ate.

Basically, I am used to hunger.

I think I can go 24 hours without food.

But of course, I need water.

-.-

And well, my weight.

I don't care about it anymore, I guess.

But probably also because it is ok with me and I am perfectly happy with it.

You know, I am not gaining any more weight so it's stabilized and all at a perfectly wonderful number.

Yay! (:

I don't know why I am blogging so much today!

But I guess I have plenty of time because, yeah duh, I've finished my homework!

(Except for SS! HAH!)

So I'm just writing whatever comes to my mind.

(:

Holidays are coming~~~~

(:

I am happy in my own little world, and that will always be so.

Oh, oh.

French was OK.

(:

But the listening compre sucked, like always.

Grammaire- If I don't do well, I deserved it.

Rédaction was do-able, only because I gave like 45 minutes for it.

Impossible to fail it lah.

:)

Anyway Britney, why they so jealous since you teamed up with me?

OMG!

❤ ♥ ❤ ♥ ❤ ♥ ❤ ♥ ❤ ♥ ❤
MY LIFE IS COMPLETE!

ADORE!

DO YOU HEAR THE BEAT!

LOVELOVELOVELOVE!

❤

Here's the full version.

Britney Spears, Nicki Minaj, Kesha.

Can this song get any better??

(((:

Still I rise

Adore❤

You see right through me.

Ah I feel so confused and so tumbly inside.

I don't know why, and that makes it worse.

Tired of letting passive aggression

Control my mind, capture my soul

So well, am I your friend or not?

Sorry if I haven't been a good one,

but I swear I never meant that to be so.

):

Please talk to me if you feel upset, or whatever.

I do care, really.

Ok you're right, just let it go.

During the weekend, my amazing mother made 6 kinds of cookies and cakes for Hari Raya.

I have never been this excited for my birthday.

But I hope people won't forget it.

I mean, what if they do.

And..and it goes by unnoticed.

And no one cares.

I mean.

That's real scary.

Siiigh.

Why are you speaking when no one asked you?

Anyway, I've finished most of my homework!

Yay!

K, except for SS Essay.

Which is impossible, I swear!

I don't know how to start, how to end.

Heck, I don't even know what they're asking for!

Urgh!

But still, for the first time ever, I might actually be going to sleep early with all my homework done!

Tonight I wanna go solat terawih.

Kbye!

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive

I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise

To fly

I am falling in love with this all over again.

Go away, please.

):

So tired............

Still doing my Geog LORMS.

Lucky tomorrow/today no Biology because of HMT block test if not I surely die because I need to do Bio TYS essay question and I haven't finished the last question for that.

TT

I'm gonna die~~~~~~~~~~

iugaoidgfaidfubfgveubfviajkifawgrfaiwugf.

SO TOMORROW I HAVE TWO MAJOR TESTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!

You are the music in me.

So on Friday, I have the Contrôle 3. ):

Basically, a major French exam, like CA3.

Funny 'cause I just had a Petit Test aka monthly test 2-3 weeks ago.

-.-

So sian.

Oh well.

French is easy, just that you have to remember the grammar, in which I really suck at. The vocabulary also quite challenging.

So technically, French is not easy.

Not easy to remember.

Contradiction.

Oh well.

Printing notes for it now.

So many pages!

I love raisin cheese bread.

Whoever created it is a genius.

It is divine.
❤

On a less happier note, I have a terrible cold.

On an even more depressing note, people are being jerks everywhere.

FML/

But your game always makes me lose points.

Today. Was funny.

In a weird, odd, way.

In the morning.

I kept laughing.

And laughing.

And laughing.

Over.

Anything.

And everything.

And nothing.

Heck, I even laughed in the damn toilet cubicle.

Am I becoming progressively more and more demented?

I don't know.

I think I am really losing my mind.

Oh, this is horrid.

And I wasn't even doing it for attention.

I just laughed.

For no reason.

Like a banshee.

):

So lately, I don't know.

I think I have split personalities.

I have this side, this one with the conscience.

And then there's this other one, this two-faced witch who seems to be controlling my life more nowadays.

I don't know what to do, I really don't.

She's making me more inclined to be the bad rebel I am sure I am becoming.

If you must know, I didn't type the blog post below this one.

She did.

Yes she, the two-faced witch.

I swear to God it wasn't me.

And I think who you see in school everyday; that isn't me either.

It is her.

She strangles my throat so I may not speak, she binds my hands so I may not move, she wraps with a ribbon my soul which she conveniently handles as she pleases.

So it's not me talking, it's her.

It's her doing everything.

She does not care, know you not?

She is selfish, and subtly mean.

And she lies everyday about everything.

She does not care at all.

She is ruining my life, she is.

Yes she, the two-faced witch.

But I can tell you a secret.

While I am still in control of my being, I can reveal her weakness.

It is love, cliché as it sounds.

She lets her guard down then.

But besides that, I have no idea how to stop her.

She, the two-faced witch.

Oh-so-complicated.

):

Go take a flying leap of faith off a f-king balcony

I love Nicki Minaj.

So very much.

Stuck-up, stuck-up, stuck-up.

GND.

_|_

Oh whoooooops.

My bad.

(:

Alone time.

So nice when it comes and presents itself.

K. That doesn't make sense.

But what I meant was, it is so lovely to have time of my own sometimes, everything is always so hustly and bustly all the time it get pretty overwhelming.

Wednesday afternoon, for example, went to Northpoint, visited the library, got something as whimsical as a $1 bottle of nail polish for my calculator, etc.

Currently, I am reading Beauty and the Soul.

It's one of those psychology books, I suppose?

But the author's a psychologist, and that's exactly what I want to be when I grow up.

No surprise then that I actually enjoy the book right?

So deep and thoughtful.

(:

Ah, I love it.

It is actually helping me to love life more.

I'll put in an anecdote soon or something.

Mehmehmeh.

I am so tired.

Night.

❤

Others before self.

Yeah, I will keep my patience.
Yeah, I will stay up until you get a peace of mind.
No, I will not lash out at you.
No, I am not going to fight back.
Yes, I will make sure you are alright first.

But no, you do not know I just had an hour-long emotional breakdown.
No, I am not quite over it.
Yes, I will put it aside so you may feel better.

Others before self.

Oh, freak.

I need to blow my nose loads this morning too.

Bah.

):<

Good morning sunshine, the earth says hello!

Bah that makes me sound happy.

I'm NOT.

Am in such a disgustingly horrid mood now.

Woke up cussing in my heart, am not proud to say that even the 'f' word was there.

I feel so irritated and so lack-of-sleeped.

isdbhowurgbkdibvbre

I hate all the PTs we are having so very much, tyvm.

E-Math, Geog, UBD can just GND.

FML/

Anyway, I better go get ready for school later.

FDC training and meet-up for that damn Geog PT.

Looking forward to that?

I think not.

FML/

Anyway, Monday was nice.

No, bittersweet actually.

So yeah.

Super Bass

I remember hearing this for the first ever time in February, I think, and it was such a lovely song.

I mean, it helped me get though A-Math homework, that's saying something!

And I replayed it over and over and over again that night.

And woah now Nicki Minaj is finally mainstream and everyone knows that song.

Oh well.

(':

This one is for the boys with the boomer system, top down, AC with the cooler system.

When he come up in the clubs he be blazin' up, got stacks on deck like he savin' up.

And he ill, he real, he might gotta deal.

He pop bottles and he got the right kind of bill.

He cold, he dope, he might sell coke.

He always in the air but he never fly coach.

He a mothafckin trip, trip, sailor of the ship, ship.

When he make it drip, drip, kiss him on the lip, lip.

That's the kind of dude I was lookin' for.

And yes, you get slapped if you're lookin', ho.

I said, excuse me, you're a hell of a guy.

I mean, my, my, my, my, you're like pelican fly.

I mean, you're so shy, and I'm lovin' your tie.

You're like slicker than the guy with the thing on his eye, oh.

Yes I did, yes I did.

Somebody please tell him who the eff I is.

I am Nicki Minaj, I mack them dudes up, back coupes up, and chuck the deuce up.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What my MP3 player's supposed to look like:

How it really looks like now:

OMG WHAT HAPPENED?!

O:

D:

D':

)':

)))))____:

So tired..

Must.keep.holding.on.for.us.

The Old Man and The Sea

I've just finished reading it and it was a pleasant piece.

I really do feel for the old man.

How cruel it must be to have fought for something so beautiful so badly, only to have it mauled and destroyed by inhuman beings of blind greed.

The descriptive aspects if the book is charming as well- I shall try to incorporate it into my own writings.

It was a darling surprise to have such an engaging plot even though the story is just of an old fisherman sailing out into the openness of the gulf, fighting to keep a beauteous marlin; fighting to keep it from the sea and its predators.

It really is ironic how much he had sacrificed himself for the "iridescent" creature and come back to the harbor with only its 18 ft skeletal remains.

He wanted to prove himself to the world, he wanted his patience to pay off, he wanted it, but the luck in which he believed in, was unkind.

What else.

Oh, his relationship with the marlin does fascinate me so.

He constantly refers to it as a "he", a "brother", but the passionate want to kill it seems rather..sorry.

Hmm.

I love food for thoughts like these.

(:

I am happy.

For once, I might actually be so.

Today was wonderful; I laughed so much.

Before the first period, during English, E-Math, CE, Chemistry, after school.

It was marvelous to feel amused.

Splendid to have little bursts of mirth rise from hearty insides.

So very magnificent to laugh with the world.

I don't know, maybe it is because of the total absence of syaitans?

(:

Oh I love my friends, my deskie, my A-math/E-math/chem/PE clique, Ms Lau, Ms Chua PT.

Did you know Ms Chua did not even scold me for handing in the Bio TYS one week late?

Aye, I felt so guilty.

I won't dare do it again for her lessons, promise.

Ms Lau was just.. high.

Thank God, thank God because if she weren't then she would never ever have simply wove away my callous, accidentally too-loud remark.

But hey, she really did look "drunk.."

Thank God she laughed along with us.

I am happy.

I am happy, and don't you try to ruin it.

If you ruin it, I will ruin you.

Bio test back tomorrow!

Ahh so nervous!

But have I told you I enjoyed the paper?

Then I can't possibly fail...right?

Ahhhhhhhhhh!

What a blessed first day of Ramadan; everything was so perfect and easy.

I am not even hungry nor am I thirsty.

(: