This one's for you and me

I am soooo tired now.

):

But I need to plan a few recipes for the India cooking thing!

Trial run this Wednesday!

I am excited but I have to know how to cook everything.

-.-

Yesss, so excited for the trip!!

But still so tired today.

Hm.

I need to play pretend soon.

Even if that just sounded so very childish.

We found love

Ahhh had a bad hair day today but I didn't care because I was too happy to.

It was raining so beautifully and after everything all the trees and shrubs were sparkling with raindrops.

So I had no reason to be unhappy.

(:

I am craving for Macs!

HELP ME!!!!!!!

Fendi on my slippers

I have a stomachache and it hurts so much I hope it goes away.

):

But my vision ends with the apple on the tree

I have no feelings now.

And I feel neutral towards almost everything.

I think it's 'cause I feel very drowsy from the past weekend.

Mehhh.

But I am not sad today.

(:

It's just that, we had just finished helping Nyai move house.

Ahhh, hmm.

I am in a thoughtful mood.

I slept over at Nyai's Sengkang house yesterday while my parents and Adani and Aryan went to KL for a wedding.

So today we shifted everything to the Tampines house which, I have to say, is really pretty.

I thought I wouldn't like it at all, but it is really quite charming.

We have got to explore the neighbourhood there.

(:

On another hand, I will never go to Rivervale again.

That is really quite sad.

I mean, there had been so many memories there no?

Ahhh crap.

They are suddenly coming back.

Ahhhhh.

Like Level 17, The Secret Garden, the 2 playgrounds where we played pretend, the sleepover traditions.

):

I think I'll list all the memories in my Random Thoughts Book.

I have school for 2 more weeks.

FML.

Lunch is shortened and school ends later.

Like, really?

Can't they cut us some slack?

I know we got to work hard and whatever but please?

Meh whatever.

I have lots to do.

And I haven't blogged in a looong while.

Ohkay, I love Nicki Minaj.

Better sleep now, bye!!!
(:

Talking bout Pheonix

Can't anyone write on the tag-board?

If you please?

Hit me like a ray of sun

ARGHHHHH.

Mood swing for sure.

I feel so pissed at everything and at myself and at everyone else and at random people I don't even know.

During times like this, I listen to, surprisingly not Nicki Minaj, but Halo.

I think that is my ultimate favourite song because I can never get sick of it.

It's the first thing I hear in the morning(my alarm), what I listen to when I feel lost, when I feel sad, or happy, or angry, or downright pissed.

Like now.

It's nice to hear to it on a high volume.

It helps me calm my nerves.

I really don't know why it is so soothing.

It just is.

):

Anyway, YES I am SO p'd off at SO many things.

Actually, AT EVERYTHING.

HAHAHA K?

God, SO immature!

But desperate times call for desperate measures, no?

No you know what, actually I need someone to rant to.

Someone, anyone, who can cope with my random rants and not judge me for them.

And someone I will feel comfortable ranting to.

It's so hard to control myself.

Ahhhh I should stop babbling on and on about absolutely nothing.

It's just that I have so much to do and so little time!

):

I want to do my Math but... I keep having other things which have higher priority.

Because of that, I've only completed 1 A-Math revision.

Pathetic.

You know something.

You will never be mature.

If you think you are, that's being immature too.

You're like a candy store

I remember the first ever time I heard Roman's Revenge.

I blogged about it last year December.

I remember that the first time I heard it, it was creepy.

Hahaha but I still replayed it.

It's such an awesome song.

If you can stand Did It On 'Em, you're a fan.

But if you can go through Roman's Revenge, you're hardcore.

Today I watched the Talentime concert.

I am so glad the classes we were rooting for won.

Of course, all the other classes were fab too!

But I guess there was a little bias because Nic's sister was in 1PE.

Hahah.

Anyway, it was so much fun!

I think we all got veeeery high.

It was a fun period.

We have so much homework omgggggggg.

):

64 pages of Amath with at least 5 qns per page.

And a whole list of TYS questions for E-Math.

Omg.

I swear I will die.

(I mean, I'm not lying. I WILL die one day, no? Oh haha lame.)

Plus I know for sure there will be more huge piles of work coming our way.

):

I've done my Math.

I have at least 60 days to do all the work.

Meaning, at least 1 page per day if I were to complete the whole thing in time for school next year.

As well as the other work.

Also, I have to remember my 12-day India trip!

I feel depressed now.

):

How sudden.

Oh well, never mind.

Life's like that.

I guess the only peace I'll get is the peace of the afterlife.

baby, I can see your halo

I am glad that we have had two days without much schoolwork discussed.
This had made me feel so much more at ease.
I've just returned from school less than an hour ago, and I am now wonderfully fresh and showered.
Oh, I AM at peace.

Dinner commences once the parents return, and I am so VERY excited.
We are having sweet and sour fish, and that is the only dish I love more than a bowl of chicken porridge.
And I am SO hungry!
You know, maybe I shouldn't have eaten in school just now.
gahh.

Oh well, in any case, I am waiting for dinner.
Maybe I should do my HML homework while waiting.
Yes, I have homework.

Ok, ciao!

This time won't you save me

I feel like crying because I realise I will never be what I want to be.

It's either that or reaching my goal will take a heck of an effort.

)':

Should I do it anyway?

You got spark, you got spunk

iSCMUN was pretty decently bearable!

I suppose my feedback for it didn't give enough credit to it..but.

It was really quite fun, even though my group members did not do much.

[):]

But still.

Ok, interesting day.

When I got home, I was exhausted.

I was tired, cold, and hungry.

Thank God there was chicken porridge for dinner.

I love porridge- it is so fluid and light and not heavy.

I seasoned it with pepper.

(:

After dinner, I read the book from the library.

Oh gosh, it is SO intriguing.

I just can't stop reading!

It's as if I have to drag it away from me.

I read 3 chapters in a row even though I told myself I'd only read 1 before showering.

It is called Entwined by Heather Dixon.

It reminds me a LOT of Barbie & The 12 Dancing Princesses.

13 princesses with a love for dancing, and names in alphabetical order.

Hahahaha but oh, I do so love reading it!

I fell asleep after that.

Even though I told myself not to, my other half kept whispering in my head.

Just 5 minutes. Please oh please let me rest.

When I awoke again, my head was a wild, throbbing thing.

I was In A Mood then.

I could feel it, because my temper felt as if it were called upon, and I could not contain my spite when I felt disturbed.

I forced myself to take a shower, so I did.

And now, here I am!

Oh kay, what a queer post!
I hardly ever write about my day, do I?

Oh well, I still have stuff to do.

Bye!

I don't need a mediator

On a brighter note, let me be proud of what little I have to be proud of for EOYs.

I got 22/25 for an unseen prose e-lit essay!

22/30 for both English compos! I mean, considering I wrote crap!

And 50/70 for a HML narrative whose plot is completely non-existent!

56/70 for E-Math Paper 2! Wow, amazing since I failed the last block test!

19/20 for French Oral!

And the most amazing miracle happened for F. Geog.

Despite starting to study 10pm the night before the exam,

I managed to scrape a 60.8 B4!

and not fail!

I am a miracle worker for not getting a C.

In fact, for getting NO Cs at all!

And my EOYs were all simply running on luck.

I am a miracle worker.

Put your number two's in the air if you did it on em

Today was interesting, no reason.

I got all my results back already.

I'm kinda mad, in a heart-wrenching way.

I missed A2 for 5 damn subjects by max 2 marks.

Bio, SS+Lit, A-Math, E-Math, English.

I am stupid for missing A2 for Bio and the Maths and English.

They were all care-effing-less mistakes that cost me my 1 mark.

If I had NOT made the mistakes, I could have reduced my L1R5 by 5.

5 is heck of a lot.

My only A is the A2 for HML.

If I had studied my idioms, for which I got 0/10, I could have gotten an A1 extremely easily.

Bloody hell.

My French is an overall B3.

That's the worst result I had ever gotten for French in my history of understanding the language.

But whatever, I expected it.

IT'S OVER, SO WHATEVER.

I put down people a lot for typing posts like this one, 'cause I always think it makes them sound so nerdy and all.

But now, I know how they feel.

It sucks, because now my L1R5 is an 18, instead of a nicer 12 or 13.

Which would have been a wonderful improvement for me.

Also, if I had gotten A2 for my maths, Ms Lau would have been so proud of me for improving by leaps and bounds.

But no.

That didn't happen.

So she is NOT proud of me.

I am still really upset for my Bio.

1 mark for a careless mistake cost me an f-ing grade.

Oh God, I am such a disappointment.

I think I should shower now, and then watch a Nicki Minaj special on E! that I am so excited for to make me feel better.

I am thrilled.

Come to Singapore, please, Nicki!

I swear I will cry if I ever see her.

She made me cry so many times already.

(':

Mila Sienna

Mila is a girl I saw recently on Orchard Road.

She is so very pretty.

She naturally is, really, and her allure is in her very blood.

But it is even more striking because.

Because she knows that.

Keep your head high, I can hear her preach, you are beautiful and strong.

So with that in mind, Mila waits by the road for a clear path to emerge, standing like she always does, one arm on her hip, a knee bent forward, projecting her power with much regality.

I am better than you, and you know that.

Her lips pout just the tiniest bit, very inconspicuously, but it sends such a clear message.

You're not even in my game.

But do you know why I actually bothered to look twice and keep my gaze there until I lost sight of her in the car?

She was so pretty..and thin.

You could see her wearing her pride on her simple tee-and-jeans ensemble.

She didn't have to dress up, her corps was enough to make a statement.

I could see almost everything so sharp, angular.

So freakishly beautiful.

I feel sick but she really did look stunning.

The balance of flesh and bones was almost flawless.

Is it no wonder that she showed it off so well?

Oh my god.

You got this swag, you got this attitude

I hope my luck stays with me till the end of the week.

I might be desperate enough to trade my social life for it.

):

I don't know what game you are playing, 'cause I sure am not playing anything myself.

Ah well, I screwed everything up anyway.

Hey, this wasn't supposed to be sad or emo.

):

Ok..

Hm, I like With Ur Love by Cher Lloyd.

Such a sweet song.

(:

Oh yeah, I watched a horror movie last night till 12am.

I was so tired the whole day.

-.-

But it was so lame I swear sleep came easy.

Oh well..

So sick, but so what.

That amazing feeling when you haven't eaten the whole day but still feel no hunger.

They say my shoe game nuts, it's so sadistic.

You know what.

Lately, I have been eating a lot.

A lot more than I usually should.

I know this had been meddling greatly with my metabolism rate, that explains the constance (made-up word) of my weight.

But well, I think it's disgusting how much I eat nowadays.

Left with $5 for the rest of the month, I suppose my eating habits will be curbed easily now.

I deserve it for doing what I did.

Anyway, I should remember one of my goals in life right?

I'm reminded every time I go to this blog.

It's a good time for this too, my body doesn't need the glucose anymore now.

I just had an epiphany

Nicki Minaj lifted my spirits so much, I swear.

Today wasn't a good day.

)':

But anyway, what else is lifting my spirits.

A Little Princess!

I'm (re-)reading it for the 4th or 5th time now.

It still amazes me that I still am able to read it as if it were my first time.

I love A Little Princess.

:)

Never did she find anything so difficult as to keep herself from losing her temper when she was suddenly disturbed while absorbed in a book. People who are fond of books know the feeling of irritation which sweeps over them at such a moment. The temptation to be unreasonable and snappish is one not easy to manage.

:)

This is what you live for

Oh my God this video just made me love Nicki Minaj even more.

It totally just summed up all the everywhere verses I love from her.

Lovelovelove.

AND it totally just introed me to more of the songs that are my type.

Oh my God Nicki I love you soooooo much.

This is so brilliant I can't even put it into words.

I feel like a stupid fangirl but oh my god.

SERIOUSLY.

<3

14 full minutes of Nicki Minaj, like REALLY!

I wish today it will rain all day

What a wonderful life I have.

I mean, really, I know exam results are coming up, blah blah.

But seriously, whatever should you worry for?

Absolutely nothing, because you deserve whatever you get for whatever effort you put in.

So it's decided, and my fate is sealed, I suppose.

Anyway, these two days I had spent soooo much with Jan it's ridiculous.

-.-

But so much fun!

I spent so much on a movie and food.

But it was so worth it.

We watched Johnny English yesterday, oh my god it was SO funny.

Rowan Atkinson is freaking epic man.

AND tickets were only $6 and we got free drinks.

We walked around Orchard for a bit, and then at Jan's place we watched Mean Girls 2 (not bad actually) and did some other stuff we had been planning to do before EOYs.

She went back to my house for dinner with my family, so unexpected but nice.

So today, we went to H&M like finally!

And F21 and Cotton On and a million other shops in which we window-shopped.

So fun.

Oh yeah, and breakfast at Coffee Bean is one of the best things to do on a lazy morning.

I love my life and my friends.

Happy 15th birthday Jan!

My world is full of loveliness

Today had been amazing!

I went to Causeway Point with the fam and had my favorite dessert for lunch.

It is a traditional dessert called bubur terigu and it was lovely.

Then we went shopping.

It was one of the best moments of the day.

We visited Dorothy Perkins.

And I got myself a clutch.

It is soooo pretty.

AND it was a new arrival, it wasn't even on display yet.

It was on the counter, waiting to be sort out and shelved, and when I saw it.

It was like love at first sight.

Do you know what I mean?

(I paid for it myself, and that felt even better.)

(':

And I just finished watching a Bollywood movie with the fam.

It was very complicated to follow but oh well.

It was quite interesting and amusing.

I hope the day will continue being as wonderful until the end.

I tend to jinx good days like this sometimes by saying it out loud.

Thunder & Lightning

Oh my, the thunderstorm outside just ended.

And the sky has returned to its everyday evening hues of pink and violet, so much different from the rebellious orange less than an hour ago.

So the rain has stopped completely, but the air left behind feels so crisp and clear and cool.

It's a really nice change from the thunder and lightning that roared and flared just now.

It was really scary, the thunderstorm.

I felt so childish as I cringed and cowered with palms over my ears but the storm just terrified me.

):

When they happen in the morning, they always wake me up.

It is really so very unsettling to have been woken up in the middle of the night, as a thunderstorm crashes outside your window, with no one else awake because you are always the one who awakens during a storm.

And as you try to go back to sleep, you can't because you can still see the light flashing beyond your closed eyelids and a sharp roll of thunder may come in a split second.

I put the blanket over my head, but that doesn't help either.

Know what I mean?

And that's why I smile

It's been a while, since everyday and everything has felt this right.

Isn't that most unusual for an exam week?

Well well, it sure is, but.

But I feel so..

So at peace.

My life feels perfectly complete, like as if everything that has to be in place is.

And all the mess that had ever been in my life had been straightened out long ago.

And it feels like everywhere I go, I walk with a skip in my step and a good-natured smile on my face.

You know, that feeling when you feel like smiling all the time, anytime?

Because you know nothing is against you, and you are against nothing?

I love where I am at now.

It feels as if I am on a high.

It feels as if I am having many good days one after another.

It feels so rare, such a blessing.

I feel so blessed.

I feel so loved.

Thank you for making my week beautiful.

But you know what, this is something I am so unused to.

I've always been used to constant ups and downs.

And this..

This feels like a prolonged moment-after-the-thunderstorm.

It feels so queer.

But I can get used to this anytime.

Heyo.

I got a bad dream last night, and it's your fault.