the death of me must be your mission

Last week was the one of the scariest, darkest moments I've ever had in my entire life.

I've no idea how on earth I could have ever felt like that.

I mean, I feel so alright and fine with my life now that it just misses me, how I can ever be so low.

Just, how does this work, anyone?

Being really eerily messed-up one moment and totally becoming an average teen the next?

How does that happen?!

So confusing.

Because currently I feel as if nothing can make me feel sad.

How I could have ever felt sad, angry, destructive all at once just amazes me.

I'm sure, completely justified, that inside me, there's this monster of a girl trying to come out and take me over to destroy.

Urgh, just forget it.